Why are girls always commenting about how single they are? Especially those that know there are good guys out there that have made their intention known to them and make every effort to be there for that girl, through thick and thin, supporting them on every avenue, and they turn down that guy? In the long run, that guy who was there for you as a friend first, the one that knows every little thing about you, what you like, what makes you upset, your favorite color, your favorite ice cream, how to make you smile when your upset, what kind of books you read, where you are ticklish, what your favorite pizza is, how to make any situation better when you are feeling at your worst... etc. would have been there more than whatever guy that your waiting for that you will cast the loyal friend aside for will ever be. More than likely, the guy who cared about you through it all ladies, even if he wasn't perfect or made mistakes, invested all that time in you without wanting more than to make you happy... and if he was still around after you rejected him, then that is a sign he will never truly stop caring about you and those are the guys you should never let go of.

Fast Car

I recently got back from a vacation and heard this song for the first time in years. Growing up songs don't really hit you because its hard to understand what they mean.. but now that I am older.. this is perhaps one of the most emotionally deep songs I have ever heard.. Tracy Chapman is severely underrated.. the song hits pretty much how I feel right now.

I know songs are interpreted different with every person, to me this song is about wanting to start a clean slate from everything that has caused anyone to feel like that are alone in this life, and to have that special someone in your life that you just feel like even if you decide to just leave everything behind and not knowing what is going to happen, that as long as that person is with you, you can feel that hope inside that only love can bring and that is all that matters as long as you have each other.

I am in love with my best friend.. and things haven't been the best for either of us personally, but she has done more for me than anyone in my life, she makes me want to be a better person.. and I just want her to be happy...

I just want to get in a car, pick her up and drive somewhere and keep everything that hurts her away from her.. never looking back. Life just isn't fair.. and that's what this song is about.. but the things I would do to keep her happy..

Like the song says, "You gotta make a decision, leave tonight or live and die this way." its about taking a risk, if you know you love someone, and they love you back, all you really need is each other.. don't let fear get in the way of possibilities..

 

"Fast Car"
You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Any place is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
Me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
Won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

See my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
His body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
Is it fast enough so we can fly away?
We gotta make a decision
Leave tonight or live and die this way

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
We go cruising, entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a bigger house and live in the suburbs

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
Is it fast enough so you can fly away?
You gotta make a decision
Leave tonight or live and die this way

What am I to you? I long to know.. The temptation is there.. the feeling I have can't be held..

The Unknown.

What happens when you take your last breath?
When you neck feels the cold shiver of death?
It scares me that I will not know when it happen.
When death's at the door.. slowly tapping..
I am too afraid to find out the truth.
Whats more unnerving is that there is no proof..
It could happen at any time.
The sudden fall at the end of life's climb.
Do I have time to save myself?
Would I be blessed with eternal health?
Do I have time to look back and say that I lived life to the fullest?
This unstoppable event of ones' life that is the cruelest..
What is my potential? What is my purpose?
I feel like I haven't even scratched the surface..
All I know is I don't want to die alone.
This outcome is for everyone, written in stone.
I want to know that I was loved and appreciated.
With everyone I was associated.
And that I will never be forgotten.
when my body is six feet under and rotten..
My memory will remain and be cherised..
and my impact will not be perished..
The thought of no longer being conscious of my being..
Hope that when its my time I can learn life's true meaning.
The unknown terrifies me to no end.
Death is a rule that I wish I could bend.

One of a kind.

I get tunnel vision, when I think of you.
Your gorgeous smile makes me feel so blind.
I am willing to play this love game.
Yes my words are full of cheese,
I am stuck on you, like I am glue.
Our friendship is one of a kind.
I am willing to do what you please.
Just to hear you say you feel the same..

Reminder....

Thank you for making me feel something I hadn't felt in years..
Every moment, every laugh made me feel real..
But beneath your looks and your beautiful smile..
You reawakened my heart to its deepest fears..
I was thinking this is too good to be true..
Every word, feeling and emotion was fake..
The time we had was the best I have had in a while..
Yet you were quick to leave and place me on the shelf..
I was reminded why I have to look out for myself..
For my well being.. and my sanity for god's sake...